Hey guise
I just wanted to apologize for being kind of absent lately. Ive posted pictures, but i havnt really talked to you guise, and for that i am sorry. I guess i just havnt felt inspired to write. I usually get it these days when im stoned.
A lot of my inspirition came from my angst. But since a lot of that has gone away since ive been working on myself and growing as a person, the only way to find that free flowing feeling is when i am medicated. And lately, ive been really trying to not smoke much, and when i do i get kinda..sleepy and sluggepish (which is why ive tried to cut back - i dont like being unmotivated anymore. Medicating use to give me that motivation and focus my thoughts but lately…its the other way around). Or i am medicating when i am with people and am socializing (which was one of my resolutions this year : have a more active social life and not be such a homebody) and i dont wanna be rude and be on my phone or computer.
But i got that fudge from w.e.e.d and i ate some after class this morning once i got to my sisters, and now that the baby is asleep i have time to just…talk and vent.
So yeah, im sorry, ill really try to get back on track with you guise.
Btw. The baby is a year now, and he is really starting to get his little personality, and he is so cute. And when i started this babysitting gig it was for the money and i didnt spend that much time with him when he was real little. Just the basics you know? But now, i keep him up as long as possible and we play, and cuddle, and he is to the point where he wants to play with his toys and i cant watch a design, cooking, or gem show on tv and he entertains himself. Its so nice. I love him :3.
